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[Jun. 28th, 2005|11:05 am] |
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I still couldn't believe how smoothly everything had gone, considering the circumstances. And I could hardly believe that Kate and I had gotten most of the kids to help with the move and that we had done it all in just a few hour's time. I guess somehow things always have a way to work themselves out... After all, the sun was back, or was gonna be back come morning. But even with everything going as smoothly as it was, in the back of my mind, I still wondered how the kids would adjust to this new environment- it all seemed to be going well so far, but you just never knew sometimes. And hopefully it stayed that way.
After chatting briefly with Kate, I went to check on everyone, make sure they were all settled in, and make sure they didn't need anything else. Not to my surprise, some kids did mentioned to me they didn't really didn't like it here, that they wanted to go back to what they knew, but it was only just a few and mostly the older ones, the ones that really didn't take well to change or authoritative figures. I tried to reassure them as best I could, hoping that they would understand and just sorta give this new home a chance, it was the only thing I could do for them. Give them reassurance.
It's what I had done from the beginning, and though out the creepy times when the sun was thought to be lost for ever; times we spent, fending for ourselves. We pulled together then, and now we would do the same, of that I was sure.
All they needed was time to adjust. And it was not like they had anywhere else to go; at least they knew that with me they had a roof over their heads, a hot meal, and a place where they could be safe from all the dangers of the city.
I started to unpack a few boxes that lay scattered in what would now be my room. From the look of things I had a long night ahead of me, sorting through everything, and making sure that I had everything I needed from my office back at the shelter. I smiled as I unpacked. I had to admit that it was a little bit strange seeing Buffy again after all this time.
She really hadn't changed much from what I remember, or maybe she had and I just wasn't looking hard enough. Always strong, always trying to help people... She was the type of person I wanted to be like.
I smiled to myself as I thought about all of this. Thinking not only that, but also thinking that it had been a long time since I had seen Charles Gunn, I mean, he did work here didn't he? Of course he did. Hadn't seen much of him since the sun went on a permanent hiatus. I guess we all had things to deal with then, but now... now things were different, right?
So that was that... I had made up my mind. As soon as I finished unpacking, and trying to make heads or tails of the boxes that lay scattered about, I was gonna go look for an old friend. |
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| Just Like Home... [now_ish] |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|09:45 pm] |
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Continued from HERE
This whole day had been interesting. First there was the sun that was actually there for a change, and then for a second there I thought it was going to be a normal day... finally, after so many not so normal days in L.A. But that had been too much to ask for. I guess it was part of being an Angelino, I couldn’t have picked a better town to become someone. Then again, I wouldn't want it any other way. If I hadn't come here, then I would probably be lost somewhere else. Funny when you think about it, I mean, really think about it. Most people say they come here to get lost, because it’s the easiest thing to do in a town that's so big. But I came here, lost already and ended up finding myself.
Life's funny that way I guess.
And now here I was, at the Hyperion searching for answers. Just trying to figure out if the sun would stay for good up there this time around and not disappear from the sky again. If this would have been a few years back, I wouldn't have cared either way. Sun, no sun, it would have been all the same. I would have learned to conform, and just accepted that fate. But now things were different, and it wasn't just about me anymore.
The kids, they all changed my life, in ways I never thought that I could change in to. Who knew that a name could be so powerful. But it was. Suddenly the Shakespeare’s quote, 'What's in a name? That which we call rose by any other word would smell as sweet...' sounded a little absurd. Funny to think about stuff like that. Well, not funny ha! ha!, just funny.
As I stood in the lobby with Buffy and Kate, I began to feel as if I were in Sunnydale again. A strange place where things always happened, and then it dawned on me that maybe Sunnydale was just a normal place with strange kids, and strange things, and that Buffy and her friends were the ones responsible for all weirdness that happened around there. Like if they all broke a giant mirror and now were doomed to live out seven years of bad luck.
That could explain what was happening now... then again, maybe not.
It did make me smile though. Just like home, I thought. But like Buffy had said, the kids and I weren't safe out there. Not from the demons and the vampires. Sure we did what we could, but it was always nice to get the extra help. Besides, here the kids would be much safer here, wouldn’t have to always fend for themselves. Sometime, I couldn't watch each and every one of them, but I did what I could when I could. And they knew that.
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After her re-cap down memory lane, Buffy decided to go and make sure there was enough stuff to house the kids here in the hotel, and… oh, get some "shopping" done too, if need be.
"And, uh... talk to you later, right?"
"Yes, I want to talk to you about the guns-"
I turned to Kate and raised my eyebrow. That was not the type of reassurance I was looking for before brining the kids here... but I didn't say anything.
"-about Gunn, I mean."
Right... I thought.
"So, um. Shall we go?"
"Yeah, c'mon," I said taking the lead.
I walked towards my car, and opened the door. I didn't think to ask first and see if she would be okay taking my car instead of hers, but I thought it might be. Still, I turned around and gave her a half smile.
"Sorry... do you mind if we drove on my car? Unless you want to take yours, that's totally fine too." |
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| Sample Post for now_ish |
[Feb. 27th, 2005|09:08 pm] |
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The teen center was eerily quiet. And what was even more eerie was the fact that I didn’t find that the least bit odd. I guess every one had been in awe since the sun had returned. Just sort of taking the light in, and smiling. Especially the younger ones. They had been the ones that had been more affected by the whole thing. They didn’t understand what was happening around them and the ones that did, just didn’t want to believe it.
It was tough- so many of these kids had tried to fend for themselves from every thug, and hoodlum in the streets, and after the sun went down permanently, they also had to worry about all the creepy crawlies that went bump in the night...
I had tried to do my best here at the shelter. Tried to help the kids cope with everything that was happening around them, as well as providing them with a roof over their heads and a warm meal, but it had been getting tougher and tougher day after day.
The shelter had been getting more and more teens, and runaways… we were already operating over what the maximum capacity would allow. But I couldn’t just turn them away. I couldn’t close the doors to them. Most of them had nowhere else to go, and the streets were filled with not only your regular, everyday (or night) thugs and thieves, but also demons and vampires.
I leaned back on the chair and closed my eyes for a moment... the sun shined through the window and on to my face. The warmth felt good, it had been the first sign of peace that I had since- since- I don’t even remember when. For the first time in a very long time I allowed myself to think back to my life in Sunnydale... think about my parents... my family and everything else I had done.
Finally I opened my eyes and tried to think of other things, it was no good to dwell in the past-- no good would ever come of it. I leaned back up and put my elbows on the desk.
I didn’t know why the sun had come back. I really didn’t know what to make of the whole thing really, but what I did know, was that I wanted to find out if it was here to stay. Most of the kids here at the shelter were looking to me for answers and I wanted to be able to give them an honest response.
With that in mind I grabbed the keys to the car and headed to the only place I knew that would give me a straight answer- the Hyperion Hotel and Angel Investigations. |
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